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"Your going to be a grandma!!? How excited are you?"

Well, lets fast forward time to May of 2018.  A good friend of mine follows my stepdaughter on Instagram and apparently she posted that she was expecting.  I had no clue, but knew she was dating a guy for a few months so I sort of predicted it would happen and I was right.... I was right.  I didn't know what to think.  This was news you share with your family, but to stepdaughter we were all left in the dust.  Anyone she had past memories with that weren't fun all of the time she ditched.  It had been a year since I had heard from her.  This was devastating news only because this was the first pregnancy that I wasn't a part of. I was so upset I cried a lot.  Then I cried more.  I saw first ultrasounds, and first tummy pics and I felt like part of my heart was removed.....What could I do to make things better?  It seemed like that's all I was doing!  Its like she was the parent and I was the child.  Then I figured out that t...
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Back at the beginning...

The Beginning.... "Olden Days" Hello and thank you for reading my blog.  I am hoping this will help the absolute heart ache I have right now, while sharing what I should be going through as a first time grandma.  Well, you see, my stepdaughter decided a year and a half ago that she was going to do her fun "run away" trick for the last time, this time running to BC where her bio mom and brother are.  That was a fine decision, but it was done in anger and while dropping off all of her responsibility and past with us.  Now, I am not saying that I am innocent by any stretch.  But for some reason, I am NOT allowed to have my own mental health issues or be anything other than a superhero. Interesting since I am the stepmother, but as I keep writing you will get a sense of why I am the invisible grandma. And Children make four... I met the first three members of my family on a beautiful day in June of 2006.  I fell deeply in love with a man who had two child...
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